Friday, 6 June 2008

Message

I have visited a few journals tonight and left comments, pointing towards this journal. I am not resuming normal J-land service, but merely (as my comments indicated) putting my head round a few doors and saying hi. It will not be a regular occurrence, just running down the list of journals on Technorati.

I have been in Holland for exactly a month now, and it seems rather longer than that. Slowly coming to terms with the death of my mother, which I still cannot get my head round. I've been busy digging out memories from years ago, primarily pictures. But many innocent things will bring back memories, not just photographs.

As I have indicated in a now deleted entry, I cannot give people my full and proper attention, the way I used to until May 1st. I therefore will not re-engage alerts (yet).

16 comments:

jeadie05 said...

Perfectly understandable Guido ..love Jan xx

luddie343 said...

Seems alot has happened in your life during my short absence.  We've both been away for a month.  Might I say, about your dear Mother whom you now have forever, I pray for you that you never let anyone rob you of your peace.  Your memories.  The things that really count.  When you can finally see light again, I have faith you'll rejoin the world of public writing to which you've made such useful and interesting contributions.  Dawn will come.  + XO CATHY
http://journals.aol.com/luddie343/DARETOTHINK/      

flawson87 said...

Hi Guido,
I understand what you mean, Guido.  Sometimes an innocent remark, catching you unaware, can trigger the emotions.  Just hang in there, It does get easier to bear, I promise.

Until later, my friend,
Frances

carolelainedodd said...

It will take time to get over a loss like yours. It gets easier with time.
It's good you are out and about, and having family around is good.
Walking down memory lane is always good.
I'm just glad you are still around and writing and posting your lovely photos.
Does that sound selfish of me?  I'm sure it is!!!!  Sorry!
Stay safe and well Guido.
Hugs
Carolxx

lurkynat said...

Dear Guido,
my deepest Condolences with the loss of your mother.
I know how painful it is.
Please hang in there and know that we are all thinking of you.
huggggggggggggggggggs
natalie

specialadyfink said...

Guido-I read your comment on Jacks journal and came to see how you are doing.
Be well!!
connie

cayasm said...

Hi Guido such a difficult time and of course your time must be with your family, I know how difficult it is, the feeling of unreality, it does pass, but it's hard to keep going with daily happenings of life, it also must be hard to adjust back to life in Holland, that too will become easier in time.

Take care

Yasmin
xx

springangel235 said...

I know those you visited were happy to see you Guido.  Take care...I am on break from my journal...Joyce

rdautumnsage said...

I was delighted to hear from you my dear friend, I do however understand still needing time to come to grips with your loss. However long it takes, your friends are not going anywhere, we will be here waiting. (Hugs) Indigo

jlocorriere05 said...

Quite understandable Guido, it takes time to get over something like this. Sorry I've been absent from commenting, I've ben on a trip to Italy. Jeannette xx  http://journals.aol.co.uk/jlocorriere05/Welcometomytravels/  

preciousone25 said...

I'm just glad that you are staying in touch with us.... take all the time needed.

Joann

helmswondermom said...

You should take your time, as much as needed, and ease back into J-Land as you feel able to.  We appreciate your allowing us to know how things are going for you.
Lori

kirkbyj05 said...

Having lost my brother on New Years Eve I had no idea how much it would affect me.
'My Big Brother' was one of the best and it has been hard to acknowledge that he is no longer with us.
My heart goes out to you Guido as you recall all those  sweet times with your mother.  'If only..' is my mantra these days, but of course we can only remember and smile.
Warm happy thoughts and memories are wished for you and your family.
 
I am enjoying seeing the Dutch countryside through your photos.  I always thought Holland was completely flat.  Silly me!
Take care of yourself.
Jeanie

rjet33 said...

It is very hard to come to terms with the death of a loved one, especially a parent.  I lost my Dad in 1991 to a massive heart attack.  He was a very heavy smoker.  Lost my brother who was only 23 in 1999 when he decided life was too painful to go on.  I STILL miss them and sometimes I STILL cry for them.  They left a big black hole in my life that will never again be filled, but I have enjoyed going back through my photos and reliving wonderful memories.  As long as we have our memories, our loved one lives on.  You have my heartfelt condolences.

Blessings!~

Susan

ceilisundancer said...

Until May 1st?  Ah, Guido, don't force a timetable upon yourself.  If it helps to give yourself a guideline time, sure, but please don't force yourself.

A month is but a scant moment in time of our lives.  You'll always be changed from who you were over a month ago, but in time, you'll feel more fully yourself again.  In your own time:)  Peace.

pprrrr39 said...

Gosh i have to admit that it seems like you have been gone longer than that.
I dont think that one ever gets their head around losing someone, especially a parent. We are constantly reminded of them in our everyday life.

My thoughts and prayers are with you Guido
hugs Jayne